Friday, May 31, 2013

Rain, Rain on my Face.

We knew it was going to be gross weather today. In fact, all week, we knew that it was going to rain up until next week. So when I woke up this morning, I was prepared for the rain. Or so I thought. I wore my rain jacket but didn't put on my Wellies because I figured I wasn't really going to be out and about all that much and wouldn't need them. Ok and fine, they didn't really go with the jeans I was wearing - there I said it!

When I got on Facebook this morning, it was a full on weather report from Kandern area people about a possible flooding and bad storms tonight and into tomorrow. At this point, it was just raining and I really didn't think anything of it. You're talking to the girl who's survived more than her fair share of hurricanes. In my opinion - a little rain never hurt anyone. But this rain didn't. let. up. Not once. And by the time I finished teaching over at the Middle School and came back to the High School, the creek beside the school was dangerously close to overflowing. Not to mention my driveway, which is a hill right across from the school, was flooded and looked like a mini Niagara running into the street and the BFA parking lot.

Well, that was 6 hours ago. It's now 10:30pm over here and it's still raining. I've no idea if the creek overflowed or not. What's interesting is that the city of Kandern has been preparing for the 100 Year Flood (which I'm assuming this is) for the last three years. I don't know if it did any good. To be honest, I'm a little worried that the school might flood.

Please pray that this rain stops.

Or that I can fashion an ark of some sort.

Here's my driveway as seen from the 4th floor main building:

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

And When We Say Goodbye....

I've lived overseas now on and off for the last 10 years. If there's one thing I know about being an expat, it's that we're constantly saying goodbye to friends. At BFA, that's certainly not an exception. Every year, people go and come. This year, I was one of the "newbies." I was one of the ones who was asking how to get places, how to do things, how to work online grading, etc. But soon it became second nature. I got used to seeing the same friends, sitting across from them at work, meeting up with them for a coffee or a meal, hanging out with them on Tuesday nights, etc. And now, these friends are leaving. They're moving on to a new life back in North America. My heart hurts but I know that this is part of what happens when you're in an environment like BFA. It still doesn't make it any easier. I know that in the next three weeks before school ends, the goodbyes will become more and the pain of it won't lessen. But I'm so thankful. I'm thankful that the Lord allowed me to get to know these sweet friends this year because it surely made the transition into life here so much easier.

Thank you Natalie, Jill, Emily K, Emily W, Tommy, Jon, Lauren, Viki, & Anna. I'm so thankful that God put you in my path this year.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Europa Park

On Saturday, the Music Dept took our kiddos for a day of fun at Europa Park (think the German version of Six Flags). It had rained most of the week, but the skies cleared and we were handed a gorgeous, sunny day all day long! Our first ride was the notorious Silver Star. One thing to know about me - I hate big drops on roller coasters. Give me the loops, the corkscrews, and the high speed start, but I have never, ever been a fan of that first, big drop. Well, Saturday, I put my fears aside and got in line for this ride that I'd been dreading to go on since we first announced the trip back in March. I had the time of my life! I know now why people get such a thrill off of it! I screamed so hard that I'm still regaining my voice (I'm also starting to wonder if I did permanent damage).

I think one of the best parts of the whole day was getting a chance to walk around with the kids and just have fun with them. No structure. No worrying about the bell ringing to make them late. None of that. Just a fun-filled day at an amusement park.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Epic Fail.

Yesterday, a few of us went into Basel for the day to sit at Starbucks and read and just relax on our day off. I was working on Gospel Transformation and there were several passages that struck me. I don't have the book with me today and of course I can't recall the exact verses, but the one that stuck out to me the most was in Mark 10:36 where Jesus says to James and John, "What do you want me to do for you?"  I was telling my friends how much I had failed at this. It's something I know that Jesus asks me everyday, but I ignore the question and continue to do it all on my own. Needless to say, the last few weeks doing this have been, as we say, an "epic fail." I'm exhausted. I'm tired of trying. And I'm so over trying to hold onto things that I don't want to hand over to God. I'm trying so hard at doing it all on my own and the end result is that I'm left unsatisfied and not much fun to be around.

Another friend asked me yesterday, "Where are you finding your identity?" It was exactly what I needed to hear. I'm certainly not finding it where I should be. I'm trying to find it in others, in myself, in opinions, in I'm so tired of this.

If only I would just listen to the Holy Spirit as he speaks to my heart. If only I would breathe and take in His goodness and His love for me and stop trying so hard. Of course this isn't easy. This is something I have to do every single minute of every single day. It makes me thankful that He loves me like He does. He hasn't given up on me because He knows that I am always going to run to Him with this. I will always take back what I've given over to Him because I want to be in control and so I'm telling Him that He really has no idea what He's doing. I could do it better. But He knows that. He's just waiting for me to run to him again so He can love on me and remind me that I'm not the failure I so claim to be.

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Weekend Away

Thanks to Amy for the pic ;)

This past weekend was ACB's Weekend Away in Langenbruck, Switzerland. This was my third retreat with them and it was wonderful to be back. This year, I helped out Amy in the children's program (and discovered that God has definitely given me the gift of working with OLDER kids) as well as headed up the Talent Show. I enjoyed meeting new people and getting to talk with friends from my time before at ACB. It was great to get away and just relax and rest in a beautiful surrounding with new and old friends.