Saturday, October 29, 2011

Henri Nouwen

If you've not ever read anything by this man, go now and pick up one of his books.  This is what I read recently & it spoke so much truth into my life.

If you are being sanctified right now, just remember it's happening for a reason.

"You must avoid not only blaming others but also blaming yourself.  You are inclined to blame yourself for the difficulties you experience in relationships.  But self-blame is not a form of humility.  It is a form of self-rejection in which you ignore or deny your own goodness and beauty.
When a friendship does not blossom, when a word is not received, when a gesture of love is not appreciated, do not blame it on yourself.  This is both untrue and hurtful.  Every time you reject yourself, you idealize others.  You want to be with those whom you consider better, stronger, more intelligent, more gifted than yourself.  Thus you make yourself emotionally dependent, leading others to feel unable to fulfill your expectations and causing them to withdraw from you.  This makes you blame yourself even more, and you enter a dangerous spiral of self-rejection and neediness.  Avoid all forms of self-rejection.  Acknowledge your limitations, but claim your unique gifts and thereby live as an equal among equals.  That will set you free from your obsessive and possessive needs and enable you to give and receive true affection and friendship."
Henri Nouwen

Friday, October 14, 2011

Time Management

I've never been good at it.  Ever.  I can't seem to think back on a moment in life where I knew that I was managing my time wisely.  Today was one of those days.  I had a project due at midnight tonight.  I started it at 2:30pm and finished at 8:30pm.  I have to admit, I do kind of like the anticipation of procrastinating because it helps me actually finish.  I know that's not really something to brag about and I know that I should try and learn to manage time better.  With support raising literally right around the corner, I really have to focus and find the time to manage myself better.

Any suggestions?

Monday, October 10, 2011

Germany...For Real

So this has been in the making since I got back from Austria & I couldn't say anything until I got the official word, which was today....

I'm moving back to Germany next year to teach at the Black Forest Academy (BFA) in Kandern, Germany.  I'm not going to be far at all from where I was previously, which excites me even more.  I'll be teaching music and drama to Middle Schoolers and will be raising support so yet again this little blog will change names & be about my support raising efforts as I prepare to go on the mission field again.

What about seminary?  I'll have 4 classes left to take and I can do those on SemLink (distance learning) and still graduate when I was supposed to graduate all along.

Hands down, best early birthday present ever!!

Stay tuned...

Sunday, October 9, 2011


There's a cafe in Vienna that is pretty famous.  It's called Cafe Hawelka.  This was probably my favorite cafe this summer.  The roomies and I frequented it a few times for some delicious bread and jam and of course the coffee.  There's no menu at Hawelka.  You simply tell the waiter what you want.  I woke up this morning craving a semmel and apricot marmalade, which made me think of this wonderful place.   I sometimes still think it's hard to believe I can't just pop out the door, hop on the Strassenbahn, and walk down K√§rtnerstrasse to Hawelka and Stephansdom and all the wonderful things in Vienna that I miss right now.

I'm learning a lot lately.  I'm learning that God isn't finished with the pruning inside of me.  I'm coming to find out that there's a lot of junk left that I still have to let go of.  And I may never see the end result.  But it started this summer.  And it is a process I love and hate at the same time.

So, since I can't go to Hawelka, I decided to just post a picture of our last breakfast there the day before we left Vienna.  Try not to crave ;)