Sometimes, it's just one of those days
One thing I vowed to myself not to do once I got over here was to make life here seem like nothing ever went wrong or that everyday was perfect. Trust me, as much fun as I am having, as much as I am enjoying the life God has granted me here, I still have plenty of days where I get weary and live completely in the flesh. Today was one of those days.
I woke up late because instead of hitting snooze, I turned my alarm off thinking I would get up in a few minutes. An hour later I woke up and it all started from there. I had a headache most of the day. I couldn't stop sweating once I got to school. And I couldn't stop believing the lies I was being fed. I wasn't good enough, no one really liked me, and what the heck was I trying to do, teaching choir? I felt pouty most of the morning and although I made it through Choir with a smile, I wanted to go back to my desk and cry. Looking back, I was exhausted and if I'm completely honest, I was in such a rush I didn't have time to do a good devo before I left for school. I don't know about you, but those morning devotions and time with God make a huge difference.
Of course He showed up like He always does. I had just mentioned to a friend that I was feeling kind of crappy today and then literally moments after I returned to my desk, one of my students came into my office and gave this to me:
Her favorite class is Choir. She really likes me. She put on the envelope that she loved the fact that I did devotions with them before class.
And God knew I needed this exactly at the time it was received.
I woke up late because instead of hitting snooze, I turned my alarm off thinking I would get up in a few minutes. An hour later I woke up and it all started from there. I had a headache most of the day. I couldn't stop sweating once I got to school. And I couldn't stop believing the lies I was being fed. I wasn't good enough, no one really liked me, and what the heck was I trying to do, teaching choir? I felt pouty most of the morning and although I made it through Choir with a smile, I wanted to go back to my desk and cry. Looking back, I was exhausted and if I'm completely honest, I was in such a rush I didn't have time to do a good devo before I left for school. I don't know about you, but those morning devotions and time with God make a huge difference.
Of course He showed up like He always does. I had just mentioned to a friend that I was feeling kind of crappy today and then literally moments after I returned to my desk, one of my students came into my office and gave this to me:
Her favorite class is Choir. She really likes me. She put on the envelope that she loved the fact that I did devotions with them before class.
And God knew I needed this exactly at the time it was received.
God is so good to us :) I totally feel the same way about my morning devotions. Rushing and lack of quiet space before my day, always get to me too!
ReplyDeleteMy boss shared this verse with us this morning, and it was encouraging to me, so I thought I'd share it with you.
1 Cor. 15:58 'So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless."
Alli - I love that you are willing to be real. We need that so much in our world. It's possible to be exactly in the center of God's will and still have those days when things just aren't working. I'm with you on needing the devo time in the morning to get through the day. I love that in the middle of the attack, God provided what you needed to make it through it. He's such an awesome provider. I love you girl - and I pray for you everyday. I know you're doing awesome work at BFA and love getting to read about your adventures!
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